“Deserve” is perhaps entitlement- it is an expectation of a specific outcome. I would say you take it however it comes good or bad. You are optimistic about whatever the future will hold. If it is good then move on to the next thing, if it is bad. Assess the why? Understand you will grow, you learned something, about yourself, others, the nature of the world. What can you change from there and know without the struggle of the hill there is no view from the top. Flats are boring, uphills and downhills makes the landscape interesting. Every uphill gives you more than all the downhills and the flats. I am runner. I love running uphill.