If you are writing about this subject then you are affected by it in some way. I wish you healing and health. This might be an effort to understand what has happened, or to understand yourself. Both should be supported. However as mentioned in other comments please share that these are opinions and not scientifically proven. This is an extremely complex area, each individual experience is unique. Express thoughts as such and allow for others to grab what they might find useful. How it is presented comes as conviction and truth, scientific - almost black and white thinking. It might or might not be. I do not know. I wish you well. Life is hard.